We all romanticise over the perfect partner. Walks on the beach, late night Cold Stone Creamery cravings, skyping a movie together if you are long distance. It is almost like we expect to be Jack and Rose during the Titanic ‘flying scene’; wind blowing through our hair, hands intertwined, gazing into the sunset. Then something goes wrong, and we panic. We have this ideal scenario of how things should have gone, and any less, will just not do. The conversations that made the heart smile seem distant when the mist of fear blankets over the atmosphere.
But we forget God never intended us to be perfect, and life is not perfect. In this misdirected endeavour we hurt ourselves with these ideas. We despair at not getting what we wanted. We forget every person who is in a relationship with another, be it a family member, friend or romantic, are playing for the same team. For teams to excel they need to work together. During a test match, one player in the team may get wounded from training too less or even too much, and they crash. When this happens, they realise they need to sit out. It does not mean they do not value the team, they just need to recover. When that happens the other player may feel undervalued and then the ego speaks on behalf of the heart. In that moment, one of two things can happen, in psychology this is known as fight or flight. When the one who was hurt, maybe in so much pain from their circumstance, when the waves of Dunya are vast and overbearing. To win in a relationship when they storm hits, recognise this as their struggle, hold space for them, and acknowledge their limitations and worthiness, and together braving the storm. When humans are in pain, drained in all their faculties, it seems like the only way to keep afloat is to swim before you drown. If someone hurts you, and they love you, remember they are hurting more themselves. Life is not perfect, nor are people, forgive them and forgive yourself. If someone hurt you, tell them. If you love someone, tell them. Rectify, heal and grow.
We hide so much of the things we want to say. So much of what the heart says is left in the dark abode of fear and resentment and we go through life in pain. We may smile but our actions speak for our pain, because all pain needs a release, and just like the volcano, if you lock something up in a contained space for long, it will eventually erupt. But we have choices. We have a choice to live in vulnerability, to tell the person whom we loved so much that they hurt us, and the thought of being vulnerable again fills our lungs with anxiety keeping us imprisoned. To the lover you lost, the friend who has now become a stranger, it is not the end. Life is so short and so very beautiful, and beauty often hides itself in shells of courage. When we live bravely, the shells break, and we own the treasures of beauty in this world. You do not want to spend your life living in regret. Yes its hurts to fall, but it hurts harder to stay there, coddling the wound. Wounds are inevitable part of life, so you have to make choices. Some choices keep us chained with fear and some emancipate us and open up us to the rebirth of something beautiful. Everyone from time inception has erred and fallen, it’s the way of man, but with every great fall is a mightier rise. Embrace the humanness in that moment of others and embrace your own. Everyone deserves a second chance, and sometimes, it is always better when you take two.
Catch you soon,